Anon

I am not sure. I am very confused on my path, as I have been brought up in this church life. I love the Lord Jesus dearly, and I do not want to waste my life in the wrong. I came across this forum. So my thoughts were pretty scattered at first and I had a lot of emotion. A lot of the emotion was guilt and confused guilt. I was nervous I was being guilty for reading up on this stuff. And I've read a lot of things for hours and hours.

I wasn't sure if I shouldn't be researching into what I grew up in, and spending so much time doing it. I then had a realization from my spirit it is okay. And I went back to a verse I've seen where it talks about the disciples testing to see if what Paul said was supported by the scriptures. That was a good example for me. But naturally as I've grown up, I see more and more mistakes, and mishaps. Which is prominent probably everywhere because we are all sinners. I read so many things, I took it with a grain of salt, as I do with most things except the Word. But I def took something from it. It made me confused I grew up in this, and I probably would have been apart of the turmoil too. But my family is here in the Recovery, and there is a lot of good things, although a lot of bad things, many things stem form the past.

I read many personal accounts and got an outside view in. It helped me to realize every body's situation and we are all one. My family is in the recovery, and I don't plan on leaving at all. Especially because the "oracle" is dead, and the recovery can grow from its mistakes and corruption. It has made me question a lot of things, and lessen the ministry, witness Lee, and made me realize Christ is the answer. I think it's a good thing I've read everything, and I'll just continue in Christ and his Word, as that's my supply alone. I will not cross out ministry although there's a verse that says to seek your interpretations, I will just be with my spirit in ministry.